good morning

and happy labor day. i'm actually up before 12...on a day where i don't have school.

anyways. two days ago was the hangout/kick back thing at kelly's house. it was cool, but i honestly didn't have as much fun as usual. i really don't know why. maybe it was the people that were there? like the 4 new people i've never met/hung out with before. maybe i felt i just couldn't totally be myself around them since i didn't know them. it's this weird thing i have, it's why i'm quiet usually when i first meet someone. i need to see what they're like, what they do, how they react to things before i do anything.
at one point i was just sitting on the arm of the couch just watching people do whatever [and i got a free show from sam, kerry, and cookie xD]. a few people kept asking if i was alright, if i was tired or something. george talked to me at one point and i don't know why but i felt like crying. i wanted to leave but i didn't. i wanted to because i wasn't having much fun and i didn't want to because i'd probably be more depressed at home at the fact that i actually left and people are still having fun. raven tried talking to me and i had to stop myself from crying so he just said that he was there if i wanted to talk. kerry kept asking several times if i was okay. cookie just kept bugging me to stop being emo and that got old real fast.
the kitty she had was adorable, though. at the end of the night it pretty much mauled my hand but kitten bites don't really hurt. they just get itchy later xD.

yesterday was a chill day. i woke up around 1pm, ate something, watched tv, vaccumed when the parents were out, and more tv. when they came back i helped with dinner. i actually cooked something! [kinda xD] it was couscous. the package said israeli pasta. i've had it in restaurants before but this was a little different. it reminded me of the pasta in this turkey lemon flavored soup from souplantation in april or something. i loved it. anyways, this wasn't instant. you had to cook it first with water like regular pasta then you had to flavor it to taste. that was the first time i got to throw random crap into food to my liking. so i put in pepper, salt, garlic salt, and basil. there was still very little flavor so my mom put in chicken bouillon powder i think. that gave it more flavor so from there i just added water to thin out the flavor since it was too salty. it came out pretty good in my opinion. i liked it. so much that i didn't get to eat much mashed potatoes xD.

in the 30-40 mins i've been up, i watched fuji's newest vlog, checked email, and looked through charlotte russe's website. they're having a 20% storewide [online only] sale. i was so close to buying something when i realized there is a CR in lakewood mall and i'm hanging out with george today. so that works out. if they don't have whatever i was looking for, i can just order it online back at his house! it's perfect xD i'm just wanting some bracelets and new accessories right now. i've been watching a lot of youtube lately, mostly on makeup stuff. and i came across this one girl, suzit86, who's chinese and lives in london and she's so cute. anyway, i liked her style on a couple of her videos so that's what i'm trying to get at right now. it's why i cut my bangs xD
anyways, i'll probably get out a bed soon, eat something and then just wait for george to wake up and call me so we can hang out. i might update later, i might not.