3 more days until new year's...

wow.

so christmas came before it even felt like christmas and now new year's is going to come before i realize the year is ending. dang.
christmas was nice. it was so lazy. me and my parents watched 2 hours of tv then me and my mom started watching the Golden Girls season 1 dvd. we finished one disc that night and now we're on the 3rd disc. then, on to season 2! haha i love that show. later we had dinner, watched Up and that was pretty much it.

i went to disneyland with lily and lauren on the 23rd and had a good time. we laughed a lot and in the car ride home, oh god, me and lauren were dying at lily's expense again. felt like highschool. after lauren went home, me and lily went to dipiazzas to see a highschool friend and his band play. they're like, punk ska i guess. that's what lily said. i can't tell genres to save my life unless it's super obvious. they were pretty good. they're called Chase Long Beach and there are 7 ppl in the band. singer, guitar, bass, 2 trumpet, trombone, drummer. i think they've changed a couple of their members since the leader [i'm assuming] said it was their 7th year together. that's a long time. but they've been touring all of america, europe, it's crazy.

tonight they're playing at HOB in anaheim, opening for Reel Big Fish so me and george are going since i always drag him to my concerts.

new year's eve i'm going to disneyland with a few people. i hope we have fun.

i am super tired right now. i only had about 2 - 2 1/2 hours of sleep. and i'm going to a concert tonight, eep! xD

I AM FINISHED!

the semester is finally over. THANK GOD.

and you'd think i'd be in a happier mood. well, i'm not. i am exhausted. can stress build up on you without you even knowing it? i'm sure it's possible. like, you don't think about being stressed but when you finish whatever it is, that stress that was quietly building decides to release itself and you are just pooped.

i WISH i could've gone home after school and taken a nap because trust me, i would've slept like a log for a good couple hours. but noooo, i had to go to work. so the whole time i'm just slouched at my computer, not giving a shit how tired i look or sound. i'm not gonna pretend to be perky and answer anyone in a happy voice. they will get what they see.

*sigh* i'm also hungry. i haven't eaten anything all day except a little piece of bread cake in the morning, a slice of pizza at noon, and a little japanese snack cake about an hour ago. my stomach isn't making noises but because i'm so tired, i need more food. but at the same time, i'm too tired to eat.

tomorrow me and my mom are ditching work and going to disneyland for the day. she wants to see the christmas stuff and the last time we went together was in january for her birthday when she got in for free. then saturday is the disney movie marathon at kelly's house.

and for now, that is all.

almost done with school

just two more finals next week and i will be free!

i won't be taking fencing anymore =[ that would have only got me 11 units and you need 12 to be considered full time. so i swapped that with a women's studies course. so no fun class next semester. now i have a total of 13 units. hopefully i'll be able to handle it. geol110 +lab, anthro120, japn350, w/st...something. i forgot the number.

but yeah. christmas is almost here! then it'll be new years- hopefully at disneyland, then ala.

today, i don't know what i'm doing. default, my mom gets on me to clean parts of the house and my dad bothers me to get wipers for my car.
i'd rather call up cathy and bake something xD which i'll hopefully be able to do later.

i guess that's it. nothing big. bye~

feeling...liberated?

i guess that's the word. a weight lifted off my shoulders? breathing a sigh of relief? something like that.

my last post i was totally depressed, but the next morning, driving to school, i realized something. i can change my major to asian american studies. i knew i could've changed my major before, but i didn't know to what. i don't know why i didn't think that far before, but i could major in asam and just get a certificate in japanese.

after looking up the requirements for the certificate, i think i'm almost done with the upper-division courses. if what i've taken is good, then i don't have to retake 302 & 312 or take 451. HALLELUJAH!!! i just have to take a few electives which aren't taught in japanese anyway. SO happy.

also, i'm thinking of taking sabre fencing next semester. i read that the teacher gives crazy hard tests for just a 1 unit course, but i'm thinking of taking it cr/nc anyway. i just need to find two more classes since i'm not taking japanese anymore.

but yeah, i hope i can do that. i'll have to look into changing my major asap. i wonder if you can do it at the end of a semester.

happy december

it is finally december and it feels like november flew by like nothing.

as of this entry, i changed my design. it's a pretty light blue with snowflakes. the green and red were a little too strong. i think it's good for winter and not just christmas.

anyways. finals are in two weeks, i have a project presentation tomorrow, and i feel like i have a bunch of other things to do. again, i build it up in my head and make it seem like it's more than it really is. i have to get letters of recommendation from my two japanese teachers, get on the application for japan, and just try and survive the next two weeks.

i registered for classes today and i think this was the first time since i've started at csulb that i've had a smooth registration. usually i'm constantly worrying about whether or not i'll make the class if i'm on waitlist or i'm just trying to decide which classes to take. really, i only get to choose two since the other two are defaulted with japanese.
...which i'm really, REALLY, not looking forward to. i don't know if it's all the stress of this semester building up, but times like this, i wish i didn't have to take those classes. i wonder why my major is still japanese if i don't enjoy it in the classroom. i know life isn't supposed to be easy, i get that and i hear it all the time. but can't life be fun? not fun and games, just fun. can't i enjoy what i'm doing? can't i do things i enjoy?

i don't know if going to japan is for me. i can't imagine myself over there by myself for a whole year. i can't even afford it. $26,000. i wonder how long i'd have to work to earn that much money, because that is A LOT of money. and since i'm feeling like this, it seems like too much work.

i'm just going to stop.