spring cleaning

something i desperately want and need right about now.

starting with my room. i always complain and say i have too much stuff in my room, and that's true, i do. i have so much stuff that i don't know what to do with it, nor do i have the space for it. i've been slowly trying to get rid of things, like donating clothes or stuffed animals, but i just have so much stuff that it doesn't really look like i've made much (or ANY) progress. and i know i'm repeating myself. i can't remember if i've already written about this or not, but it's something i've turned over in my head, over and over again.
and the stuff that's left after an attempt at cleaning a corner, it's stuff i just can't part with. i try to tell myself i'll never use it, wear it, need it...but sometimes it's a random gift or has some memory attached to it. if the gift is too random and enough time has passed, i'm sometimes able to let it go.

there's also my mom's sewing machine in my room. that little area i can't really help since it's not mine. but things are just piling on top of and under the desk and ironing board. i'm not going to die if i don't clean it up immediately, since some things haven't moved in over 2 years. no lie. if i think about it, i haven't touched some things in over 2-3 years. but when i'm kind of in a bad mood or something, i wish i didn't have so much clutter in my room because that just adds to it. i want a nice, clean(er), neat(er) room i can sometimes get away to. or at least not feel overwhelmed by.

i feel like i want to clean my life out in general. i can't really explain what i mean by that. it's not like i have any people i want to cut ties or make ammends with. maybe a part of it is work. this is also something i probably have written about in the past.

i don't want to be stuck here at toyoshima. meaning i don't want to make this my career. but because it's easy compared to other jobs out there, i'm spoiled and i don't want to leave. i'd rather bitch and moan about it than leave and take matters into my own hands. i get decent money from here and it's very lax. i've never had to go through an interview or submit a resume. but i don't want them to rely on me. i probably won't leave for awhile since i plan to stay here while i'm going to school. but then comes the question of, "how long will you be in school?" and i don't know the answer to that. it'll take as long as it takes, is what i think. i'm still living at home so it's not like i have any major bills to pay. i paid for everything for school for this semester (books, tuition, parking) and i pay for my disney pass. everything else, my mom takes care of for me. so the money from this job is kind of like, i don't know the word for it, spare(?) money. i sometimes put some of my paycheck into my savings and the rest i get to do with it what i want.

theeennnnn....when i get to this point in my train of thought, it gets to be too much and i usually stop. give up and distract myself with something else to get my mind off of it. i feel so unsure of my life right now. yeah i'm only 22, but when people around me seem to be getting their shit together, i makes it harder.

sigh. i'm going to stop. until next time, bye!

getting ready for spring...

wardrobe-wise at least.

yesterday i felt like going out shopping with my mom so i convinced her to go to del amo mall and we did a little shopping at forever21. maybe not a little price-wise, but we got quite a few pieces for what we paid. i thought i'd share what we bought with pictures!

i went in wanting to look at the necklaces and maybe pick up one or two statement necklaces. i only have simple, thin chained necklaces with a little charm. so i wanted something bigger. well, as soon as we walk in the store, i see the blazer i saw on the site.

 it actually looks decent and very bold. the fabric has a nice feel and it fits pretty nicely.

also, forever21 has the WORST styling. ever. that first picture makes her look fat and is very unflattering. with how the S fit me, she needs an XS. trust me, it looks better than it does on her. anyways, i got that because it would go great with my striped JCs. i can't wait to pair them together with a black bodycon dress.

i saw these little cuties and felt like spring was here. they also have a slightly more rounder shape than typical wayfarers. that with the bright print makes it really cute.

then i found this plastic black bow ring and plastic yellow heart ring. the bow just looks really playful and the yellow of the ring, again, screams spring. my mom got a red bow and a purple heart. she also liked this fabric flower ring. (of course we're going to switch and share)

since i was trying on the rings with the little paper backing attached, i guess it fit snugger than it would without. so when i got home, the bow still fit okay, but the heart is so much bigger than i thought! i wonder if there's a way to make it fit better...somehow.

i could only find one necklace that was along the lines of what i was looking for and something i actually liked. aaand...up until yesterday it was on the website. i know it's a slightly older style so it might've finally sold out. this one has a similar style. it's painted on gold shaped flowers, not jewels or stones. it's also multi-colored with pastel colors so again, springy.

i also got this simple, yet amazing yellow pullover sweater. coming from a darks/black dominated wardrobe this winter, this is the cutest thing i own right now that i can't wait to wear. the model is wearing an S and i got an L because it looked a little better with some slouch and baggyness (and the sleeves are actually long enough on the L). also, it's not as pastel as it looks online. it's like, the perfect shade of yellow. not pastel and not bright.

i think pairing the sweater with the sunglasses and my light-washed, cutoff denim shorts would be SO CUTE. i can't decide what shoes to wear though. super casual would be some cute flat sandals and then some wedge sandals would give it a little more girly flare.

oh, i almost forgot. this last piece isn't from forever21 but i wanted to add it to my spring-obsessed post. it's a watch from the brand time will tell. i actually got through wholesale through my work. lucky!

 it's such a cute light, baby blue color. again, pair this with everything else i just listed (minus the blazer) and i'd have the most colorful outfit i've worn in months.

okay, that's it of my shopping. bye! ♥

Finding Neverland

i watched that movie last night since it was on one of the movie channels. i can't remember when i really watched it last, but i know it's been a while.

i don't really like watching it because it's sad and makes me cry, but i kind of forced myself to watch it last night because it's a really nice story and has that whole, Peter Pan thing going on. sure enough, i started crying at some parts that a normal person probably wouldn't cry at. maybe because i knew what was going to happen and how it would end. i was pretty much sobbing at the end of the movie.

watching it again last night made me realize how beautiful of a movie it really is. i guess i just really like the whole Neverland and Peter Pan concept. i like certain movies of Peter Pan better than others, though. for example, the classic disney animated one is cute, but kind of annoying at some points. tinkerbell is a straight up bitch for the most part (i like her personality more in the newer Tinkerbell movies, before she meets peter pan...although i do want to see some story of how they meet). i really liked the live-action movie of peter pan with jeremy sumpter. yeah, he was cute and all, but i liked it for more than that. i liked how it seemed a bit more "real" and raw with the costumes and set of neverland. i've only seen Hook once and i can't remember most of it. i might've fallen asleep or just not paid attention. those who've seen it say it's really good (and are usually shocked when i say i haven't seen it/don't really like it) and i'm sure if i took the time to watch it, i'd like it too. hm, i can't think of any other peter pan stories...

but yeah, finding neverland is really good. i might be more partial to it because of a few things though. the time and place is very old and i love looking at the fashion (after a quick search, it takes place in london, 1903). i think the title is also really nice and simple. and just the overall child-likeness of johnny depp's character, j.m. barrie, makes it enjoyable.

clearly i have nothing bad to say about this movie and am just going to start repeating myself. but i wanted to write about something regarding it.

on my list of things to do before i die, i have "meet peter pan and go to neverland". i kind of had this thought in the back of my head that when i finally get to see neverland, it'll be in the same way that kate winslet's character, sylvia, did. which is basically dying. kind of morbid, i know. but i can add, "to die would be an awfully big adventure" to the end of that and make it not so depressing. i was already ecstatic when i went to london and walked through kensington gardens and hyde park and saw the peter pan statue.

okay, i think i'm done. bye!

happy valentine's day! ♥♥♥

happy hearts day!!!

this is the day i get to overkill in hearts, pinks, girlyness, and chocolate. not that i don't do those things normally, but on this day, i like to combine ALL of it together so it's pretty obvious i'm excited about the occasion. for example, i did my nails last night!

valentine nails~

(and yeah...i don't have the Japan entry or the ALA entry up yet. don't count on it [for all one of you who -might- read my blog] since i'm too lazy and i want to blog about other things)

so me and george already had our valentine's day dinner on saturday when he came over and we cooked a delicious meal. but you know, you can't -not- do anything on the actual day, so we're probably going to dinner at the original fish company. i also have a little surprise for him. hehe, i'll take a picture when i give it to him and post it next time. anyways, here's a little update of yesterday.

i started my first day at el camino yesterday. it was weird. i panicked looking for parking (as usual) but found a spot with plenty of time to calm down and relax. the teacher was about 15 mins late for my first class. we were all standing in the hallway, thinking the same thing. "where the hell is our teacher?! there's no note...the class isn't cancelled, is it??" at about 11:15, a woman, who i assumed was the teacher, comes down the hall and lets us in. i take a seat in the back and then i hear a booming male voice, "hello! good morning!" and i'm thinking that is -not- the teacher's voice...then i see her signing and notice the man up front is an interpreter.

so for my deaf cultures class, my teacher is profoundly deaf and we have two interpreters for the whole semester. it was definitely interesting trying to watch her and catch what signs i recognized. also took a mental note to try and sit closer or towards the ends of the rows so i can see her sign. we don't need to know sign for the class. she just happens to be a deaf teacher. i also won't know if i'm in the class or not until tomorrow. about 5 people didn't show up, but she has to wait until the second class to drop them and add people from the waitlist. i don't even know what number i am on the waitlist. i kind of wish she went through some of the top names or something.

my second class is already a lot more intense seeming. it's intermediate sign language. i don't know "how deaf" our teacher is and i couldn't catch from her story is she was born deaf or not. i couldn't really understand about half of what she said. she signed faster than i'm used to and used a lot of signs i wasn't familiar with. she seems nice though. she told us to raise our hands if we didn't understand her. even if we keep raising our hands, one after the other, taking up a lot of time, she doesn't care. she wants us to understand her and to learn. hopefully i'll be able to learn a lot from the class.

i was also on waitlist for this class. two people didn't show up and she added 4 people from the waitlist. i was the last name she called and those who didn't get called couldn't be added. lucky!!! i'm so glad i at least got into one class.

anyways, i'm already kind of nervous about the projects for the asl class. one of them is to attend a deaf event and interact with one deaf person. the first event i thought of was Deaf Day at Disneyland. i've never been (not that i know of at least, although i think i was one year because i saw A LOT of ppl signing) and i don't know how i would go about talking to a deaf person. especially since i'm so inexeperienced and don't want to seem like an idiot to someone. but that would be a fun since i go to disneyland a lot anyway. i just want to go with someone who knows sign too...i wonder if i'll make a friend (or even aquaintance) in the class. oh yeah! we're not allowed to use our voice in the class. which, you know, makes sense and all...but since i'm used to just talking to my classmates, asking "how do you sign" or "what's..." not being able to talk seems like it'll take twice as long to communicate with everyone. @_@

okay, bye! ♥