life...

is so freaking interesting. Sometimes, it's surreal. No, really.

Also, I've started to realize that, I don't take some things as seriously as I probably should. Yeah, sometimes I seem like a hard-ass, stick in the mud, who gets all bent out of shape over the slightest deviation from a plan, but that's when it involves other people. It's hard to explain, but I noticed it's when I'm central in the situation or when I'm the decision maker. The only couple of examples I have (that I can think of right now) may not be the best since they're similar and might just be a coincidental pattern, but here they are:

When it came time to deciding where to go for high school or college, I honestly didn't have a direction. I just kind of went with the flow and went where my friends went. When I was asked in my high school interview, why I chose that school, I honestly didn't have an answer. I already used the standard, "I heard it's a good school, I got good recommendations, good learning environment, etc" so when I was asked for something else, I actually froze. I sat in that chair, for what seemed like 30 minutes (but really was probably 3 mins...which is longer than the comfortable, socially acceptable allotted time), between my parents who were probably panicking because I wasn't answering. I never did answer that particular question. I sat there long enough where the teacher gave me a break and said we could move on.

I think college might have been a little worse, but maybe not so much at the same time. Easier, because if you graduated high school, passed your SATs/ACTs, and were only trying to get into some CSU school, you got in. Worse, because by the end of high school, I was only doing enough work to get by. I really didn't care after a certain point. I was undecided on a college and I think I just settled on CSU Long Beach because a friend was going there (which, in the end, she didn't end up going to after all).

And a few other little things (or maybe not so little in actuality), I've noticed I don't take so seriously. That's why I say it sometimes seems surreal. People making such a big fuss over some things that seem kind of trivial in the end. Or maybe...I don't know. I think I'm thinking too much again. God, I sound like a freaking hippie.

I think I've come close to a decision on my next tattoo! I know what, where, and I think I've decided on the font. I just have to stop being lazy and actually go to a place and get it done.

Okay, that should be enough for now...bye! ♥