unpleasant mornings...

That's not exactly something you want to start your day with.

I don't even know where to begin. I've talked about this countless times and have always said the same type of thing, over and over. It's basically work. Since we have a new boss coming in about a month, our current boss wants to put in motion a lot of things before he leaves (although he won't be leaving for another year, at least). One of those things is giving me more responsibility. Ya~~~~y -_____________- I hate that word. I also hate being told what to do. If I'm told to do something, I automatically want to to the opposite. I just seem to have a problem with authority. I think part of it comes from my dad...

Anyways, more responsibility includes going to MAGIC in February. I've never been to MAGIC in February because I always have school. Now he really wants me to go (for experience or whatever) but I don't plan on missing school. I have no idea what my classes will be like next semester, but I already have trouble with school (mostly my willpower and motivation to stay) so I don't want to mess with that. Also, I'm taking sign language so it's kind of hard if you miss a day, let alone a week.

This is not the kind of thing I want to deal with in the morning. This isn't the kind of thing I want to deal with at all! I'll deal with it when the time comes. Don't bring it up 5 months before, let it linger and then bring it up every so often. It just makes me hate it more and more.

And my mom bringing it up again this morning? Not helping. I already feel so unsure in my life, I don't need to be reminded first thing when I get to work. I wanted to cry. I can't cry at work. If I don't let it out, it kinda stays there all day until I completely forget about it or get to finally cry.

Okay, that's it...bye.